From Drill Bit to Activism: Twenty Years of Cognitive Dissonance

I could calculate carbon emissions in my sleep, but it took twenty years before I allowed myself to truly feel what those numbers meant. That hesitation is what this book is about.

For twenty years, he built his identity on production targets, quarterly profits, and the belief that fossil fuels were essential progress. As a petroleum engineer working across continentsfrom the North Sea to Southeast Asiahe was successful, respected, and thoroughly embedded in an industry he never questioned. Until he couldn't anymore. This is the unflinching memoir of a man caught between two worlds: the lucrative, intellectually stimulating career he'd mastered and the climate crisis he could no longer ignore. It's not a sudden awakeningit's a slow, agonizing recognition that the system he'd dedicated his expertise to maintaining was literally burning the planet. The cognitive dissonance became unbearable. Through technical expertise and personal reflection, the narrator exposes the internal culture of oil and gashow intelligent people rationalize extraction, how the industry manufactures doubt, and how career advancement becomes complicit with climate denial. But this memoir also unflinchingly examines his own role: the compromises he made, the warnings he dismissed, the compartmentalization that allowed him to sleep soundly while signing off on projects with catastrophic consequences. The second act chronicles his radical pivot: leaving six figures, facing industry blacklisting, confronting former colleagues' accusations of betrayal, and discovering that climate activism isn't simplerit's just differently complicated. It's about translating fossil fuel expertise into renewable energy solutions, learning that moral clarity is messier than it looks, and recognizing that insider knowledge is both powerful weapon and permanent liability. For climate advocates seeking to understand industry thinking, transitioning professionals wrestling with career conscience, engineers grappling with ethical responsibility, and anyone questioning the personal cost of systemic changethis memoir offers an insider's map through impossible choices.

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