I Can't Even Think Straight

In this emotional novel in verse by the Stonewall Award-winning author of The Black Flamingo , a queer biracial teen confronts issues of race, privilege, class, and sexuality on his journey to falling in love. Kai knows who he is to others: The good grandson, the reliable best friend, the romantic backup. But he doesn''t quite know who he is to himself. Kai wants to come out at school, but his best friend there, Matt, stays closeted for fear of getting kicked out by his conservative parents--and wants Kai to do the same. Kai unhappily agrees, but when a rumor goes around that Kai and Matt are dating, Matt starts acting differently anyway. Kai''s other best friend, Vass, is proudly nonbinary and thinks Matt is a negative influence--though maybe that''s just their crush on Kai talking. Kai has always turned to writing to express his emotions, but when his on-page emotions erupt into the real world, he might just be putting the delicate balance of his life at risk. Told with Dean Atta''s signature lyricism and candor, this deeply feeling story explores the complexities of crushes, navigating identity, and coming out.

Autorentext

Dean Atta’s poems deal with themes of race, gender, and identity. He regularly performs across the UK and internationally, and his work has been shortlisted for the Polari First Book Prize and has appeared on MTV and BET. The Black Flamingo, his debut YA novel, won the Stonewall Award. He is also the author of Only on the Weekends. You can find him online at deanatta.com.

Klappentext

In this emotional novel in verse by the Stonewall Award–winning author of The Black Flamingo, a queer biracial teen confronts issues of race, privilege, class, and sexuality on his journey to falling in love.

Kai knows who he is to others: The good grandson, the reliable best friend, the romantic backup. But he doesn’t quite know who he is to himself.

Kai wants to come out at school, but his best friend there, Matt, stays closeted for fear of getting kicked out by his conservative parents—and wants Kai to do the same. Kai unhappily agrees, but when a rumor goes around that Kai and Matt are dating, Matt starts acting differently anyway.

Kai’s other best friend, Vass, is proudly nonbinary and thinks Matt is a negative influence—though maybe that’s just their crush on Kai talking. Kai has always turned to writing to express his emotions, but when his on-page emotions erupt into the real world, he might just be putting the delicate balance of his life at risk.

Told with Dean Atta’s signature lyricism and candor, this deeply feeling story explores the complexities of crushes, navigating identity, and coming out.

Zusammenfassung

"Atta touches in gentle, sensitive ways on many significant themes. An emotional novel in verse that reads like an actual teen's diary." - Kirkus Reviews

"Atta crafts another memorable story about a young teen finding themselves, and he perfectly captures the complexity of relationships." - Booklist

"Atta deftly explores themes of queerness, masculinity, and racism with emotional honesty and heart. A warmly rendered story about being seen." - Publishers Weekly